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Makeup
03:24
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I am a fake
the sum of all my previous mistakes
hate my brain
wish I could separate my body from the same
I‘m building walls around myself
you won‘t get closer
no chance to tear `em down
tear them down
I love your look
when you‘re uncomfortable
how you don‘t mind that
you‘ve got no makeup on
puked in my own bed
so embarassing
I drink myself to death
cried for help
but no one notices
when it is happening in your head
we sometimes struggle with ourselves
but now I can firmly say
If a car crash doesn‘t kill me
then I don‘t know what else will
you‘ve got no makeup on
I love your look
no chance to tear them down
no you ain‘t got no makeup on
cosmetics rotting on my shelf
now that I‘ve finally learned
you‘ve got to love yourself
to fall in love with somebody else
I love your look
when you‘re uncomfortable
how you don‘t mind
I love the smiles when you are comfortable
how you say „fuck yeah“ when things finally work out
my dear
you‘re beautiful
just like the way you are
that‘s right, that‘s it, that‘s fine
as long as you stay strong in your ways
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Never Perfect
03:45
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one more step and I‘ve crossed the borderline
one more breath until the drugs kick in
it‘s so hard to get used to not always being on time
did you know you‘re not perfect, neither am I
my subliminal consciousness cracks
I can‘t hold back anymore
oh I hate my guts
all these sickening future chats
smoking cigarettes in front of hospitals
when was the last time I got to talk to you?
when was the last time I spoke the truth?
when was the last time we seemed to feel ok
for fucks sake I‘m not perfect, neither are you
you killed yourself
erased each and every dark thought inside your head
you killed yourself
kill myself
I‘d rather kill every issue that weakens my mental health
I kill myself
I can see
stay awake
such an understatement to say
we‘re so happy
so happy
if we always just fuck up each other
then I‘m sorry to say
this might be the end
if we take care of one another
then I promise that I will take care of myself
and I promise you that I will take care of myself
I promise you, I promise
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Ghost on the Ceiling
02:45
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face it, I am leaving
as if I‘ve done this all before
I was hiding from the truth for too long
silently seeking pity
I leave it up to you
caught up in my problems left you for good
and I‘m so sorry
that I stopped breathing
I couldn‘t be strong
I was so overwhelmed
by all the weight of your dreams
buried by complications
your begging was in vain
It’s carved into my brain
I can hardly concentrate
I don’t know what to say
Please show me how to stay
I‘m drifting through my selfish ways
couldn‘t cope
with the way you lie motionless in the corner of your room
I felt wrong and uneasy
I just couldn‘t draw through
I really couldn‘t get to you
I‘m so sorry
that I stopped breathing
I couldn‘t be strong….
a feverous heat grows and I see ghosts on the ceiling
and I‘m so sorry
couldn‘t stop the bleeding
I don‘t have the guts to let it grow
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Cling to You
03:47
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you grew up as the smartest kid in your neighbourhood
but never had anything to show your friends
you had it all planned out
had your life figured out
you bought a dozen things you thought you‘d find comfort in
you tried, you tried, you tried, you tried
always doomed to miss your goal
sometimes it‘s better not to cling to love
nothing ever hits harder than the heaviest heartache
and nostalgia burns you from the inside out
follow your instincts
fuck your commitements
leave no space for ever lasting doubts
your pale but flawless skin
brace yourself for controversy
you tried, you tried, you tried, you tried
always doomed to miss your goal
sometimes it‘s better not to cling to love
your loss of temper rendered useless
you won‘t even get close
don‘t let your sympathy wear out
heard someone speaking „oh my god“
how did we get so old
heard someone whisper „oh my god“
how did we get so old
heard someone screaming „oh my god“
how did we get so old
heard someone shrieking „oh my god“
how did we turn so old
from „playgrounds at age 14“
I wish I lived life like you
over „dying 18 years old“
to a couch, aged 22
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Failsafe
03:22
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I am too young to know what life means
I‘m too young to understand
I‘m wasting hours in front of tv screens
as reminiscences pop up and leave
yeah we know
we spent the weirdest nights
we know
we almost failed in style
there had been times
when we felt comfortable
with breaking into pools late at night
as motion sensors turned the lights on
we turned regrets off
we were not afraid
yet so unaware
but yet so safe
it was by far the best I ever felt
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Funtionality
03:31
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you are the firework
that lights up all the best parts of my heart
you’re such an overthinker
trying to figure out
what you are thinking about
tried the last couple of months
to treat myself alright
in a place where only struggle, stress and troubles align
the foundation of all functionality
is the confidence I need
and just like kids having fun
I cross my fingers and hope that
a faster pace brings me closer
to where I wanted to be
stripped from my insecurities
the foundation of all functionality
is the confidence I never learned to face
the foundation of all functionality
is the confidence that shapes my heart
I’m really sorry
sometimes I run wild
my thoughts are blurry
but my dreams they flourish
as my heart beats double time
you are the firework
there is a firework
the foundation of all functionality
my medication
the foundation of all functionality
is the confidence that shapes my heart and brain
I‘m counting the hours
untill I’ll burn out again
god I swear I need to live through this hell
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I Must Have Been Blind
04:14
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heard you say
I must have been blind
must have been so out of my mind
heard you say
I lost it this time
must have been blind
must have been so out of my mind
you‘re not alone
through the doorway
across the backyard
I sway
you‘re not alone
no, not alone
it‘s hard to fix your head
when you’re so far away
I heard you say
and so I missed out this time
oh it’s the little things
that cheer me up
and bring me back to life
I heard you say
so far away
and I keep searching searching searching
for a proper thrill to stay awake
but when anxiety comes crashing in
I suddenly feel like I’m duct taped to my bed
when I hide under the blanket
press a pillow against my head
oh it’s the tiniest
the smallest things
that have the power to bring me back
have the power to bring me back
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Fickle Fake Friend
03:29
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at a loss for words
I can‘t take the bad blood anymore
It strikes me where it hurts
We‘re both silent witnesses
So trapped in our weaknesses
I haven‘t been myself
spraypainting pictures on the wall
you can shut your eyes
but it‘s plain to see
a fickle fake friend isn‘t what I need
I feel nothing, nothing, nothing
count me out
cut the loose end of it now
(nothing at all)
too shy, too ashamed
where there‘s a will
there‘s a way
but I‘m wrapped up in my plans
I avow
I don‘t find comfort in what‘s here and now
and you‘ve entirely been yourself
removing the dried dye from the wall
no it can‘t be seen with the naked eye
A good friend is all I‘ve ever tried to find
I feel nothing, nothing, nothing
count me out
cut the loose end of it now
(nothing at all)
I was barely even rushing
not aware
what you left up your sleeve for me
You tried to be there
hold me back
if I could go back in time
bring me back
I swear that I would make it right
we can‘t win back the time we missed out together
let me feel something, something, something
instead of nothing, nothing, nothing
count on me
you can always count on me
and though I am a coward
don‘t seem to show the
courage to be vulnerable
I see a future in you
can you still see a future in me, too?
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Get Lost, Get Found
03:22
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the advice you gave
sleep like a stone
and time will make up
for all the past mistakes that you have made
breathe slowly
so you can bear the suffocating heat
you‘re not lonely
you’re getting stuck with promises you couldn‘t keep
“but it‘s alright” you say
you only remember
the best times we’ve had
you read your magazines
about mental health
but deep inside you know
not even time can help
I offered my whole heart to you
but if you say I am a liar
then that‘s probably the truth
our connection feels so lose
we‘re in love with all the bitterness
and the trouble pierces you
get lost, get found
learn to smile
or drown
It’s much too late
even your therapist is afraid
I offered my whole heart to you
but if you say I am a liar
then that‘s probably the truth
our connection feels so lose
you're in love with all the bitterness
but I‘m in love with you
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Hopeless Romantic
03:24
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safe to say
we‘re trapped in reality
the common kings in disrespecting needs
personally
I wish that I had more to say
I wish I could open my mouth
and tell these fuckers to shut up
don‘t figure out
it‘s wasted time
wasting your mind on someone else
give me hype and give me fashion
cheap thrills without regrets
I am so pissed off with my priviliges
but I‘m kinda stuck in it
my ears shut
no goals, no vision
did I ever claim to be?
any good in writing songs about politics and economy
I figured out
don‘t figure out
you‘re wasting your precious time
if you can‘t see immediate change
I figured out
that cooperation
can cause a turn of events
it‘s been ironically romantic ever since
I figured out
„If we work together
things will eventually change“
an ironically romantic phrase
I‘m a hopeless romantic
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